||Meh. M-E-H. Meh.
I'm actually confused now. I just noticed that Ben unblocked me. That kind of makes me nervous. He gave me the impression that he never wanted to speak to me again, by the ways he looks at me and how he stops talking when I pass him in the hallways and such, and then makes it possible for me to talk to him? I don't understand. Maybe it goes with the name...
Ben is dating Chelsie. I hate Ben, and he doesn't deserve Chelsie. He never deserved Beth last year, she's WAY too good for him, anyways. Chelsie is too good for him too. Everyone and anyone, even the lowest whore out there, is too good for that asshole. He doesn't even deserve his own fucking hand. I hate how he treated Brandy, I hate how he treated Beth, I hate how he treats me like I can make Beth talk to him again... I don't want to see Chelsie in tears over him, because she doesn't deserve that. She's such a good person, despite the occurences we've had in the past. Well, the good thing is, he's a senior this year, and after June 6th, I'll never have to see that manipulative bastard again. That's a good thing.
Back to the other Ben, I don't get it. It seems he's already replaced me with Sophie, so why does he go and do this? Maybe I'm making too big of a deal over it, but I'm really confused. Yes, I did love Ben at one point, he was like a brother to me before he used me. And now I can't look at him the same way. That happens with almost everyone I let know me. I guess it's inevitable, except with Beth... I really just want to sort things out with Ben. I truly hate how things ended. I hate how it's all weird when we're in the same room and how I cringe at his name in disgust. I hate what he did to me, and I hate what he did to Beth even more, and I am by no means forgiving him of this, but I want things to have ended peacefully, and then maybe we can stand each other. He has said a lot of things that have hurt me and never once apologized. Not even one "I'm sorry, Jenn." to my face.
Now for something funny. Gary, Trekky, David, and Joe came over tonight (from David's house.) Imagine the four of them in Trekky's mini-coop! Heh, then they were all going to Gary's to spend the night, right? I look out the window to see Trekky driving off and Joe and David chasing after the car. Gary's in here putting on his shoes and laughing at them. He leaves, Trekky comes back (after some yelling...) and they drive by about an hour later honking the horn and having Joe scream out the window. It was really funny, but probably pissed off a few of my neighbours. Heh, it was cool.
Grr... my stupid CD is skipping! Rabble. Maybe it's my CD case that scratches them so badly... Oh well. That just pisses me off because it completely fucked up my Golden Age disc. When you fuck with one of my Manson CDs, I get really pissed. It'd be like taking candy from an NRA member... Haha! I like that! Heehee. Hey, all the old L3FT songs work. Their new CD kicks some majour ass!!! I love Greg so much for getting me into them...
YAY! My brithday is coming up! I'll get money, then I'll go look for a job. Gary said he can't see me having a job, which kind of pisses me off, but I'll show him! May 19th, and I'm 16! That's... 17 days from now! I can't wait! I'm gonna have a party and watch horror films! It'll be SO awesome!!!
The extravaganza is coming up! I'm so excited! We get to play music from Pirates of the Caribbean this year! It's going to be so much fun. The only bad part is that we have to play with the Freshman. Blech. Listening to them in the morning seriously hurts my ears. The trumpets are too loud, they're all out of tune, no one cares about the actual musicality of the class, it sounds like my class! I can't wait for Symphonic next year. I'm gonna need pants though, because I can't play in a skirt with my horn on my lap. Anyways, extravaganza, May 16th (I think... it's on a Sunday) at 2 pm in the WKHS Competition Gym. (There are two, it's the bigger one. Not the one all the way in the back, the one before that...) EVERYONE SHOULD GO!!!
Art House was awesome. Brandy can really, really sing! I LOVE her song! And I never really realized how good of artists Linworth has... Makes me feel inferior, because I can't draw, but then again, it's really awesome to see that our school shines like that. It really makes me appreciate being in a place that lets us have the freedom to express ourselves. Plus, Brian Carnahan's "Collage 'o' Asses from Camp Christian (which is really Camp Lazarus)" as I call it was really funny. The only bad thing is, Porsche's gross, fat ass was on there.
I can't think of anything else to put in here, and seeing as I've already put in another public entry for tonight, I'm gonna go watch the South Park movie on TV that Mom said I'm not allowed to see ever.